Sunday, May 13, 2012

About Myself (1)

I was born in a small town call 'Membakut'.  I am the youngest in my family where I have 4 brothers and a sister, of course my parents also.

I study at the local primary school till UPSR.  I remember when I was young, I think I am around 9 or 1 years old, I almost die in a lake.  Thanks God, someone save my life.  If not, I never had a chance to live until now.

In Primary 4, I started to follow competition like story telling contest, speech contest and singing contest.  I like dancing and I almost participate everytime.  I am kinda a "famous person" in the school.  In Primary 5, I won a champion in speech contest for the whole Beaufort area, then I have a chance to go for State contest.  Although I lose in State contest but its really help me to get a lot of experience.  

In Primary 6, yes, I join the speech contest again and again I won the 2nd runner up and again have a chance to enter in State Contest.  However, I lose again in State Contest.

I also got the chance to enter singing contest in Sandakan where met with all contestant from all around Sabah. Hahaha ... of course I didn't get Top 5 place but is enough for me to earn an experience in my life.

Well, after completed my Primary education, my parents let me go to KK to strengthen my education base.  I have enter to SM Stella Maris Secondary School.  In the first semester, I totally can't believe myself as I only manage to score no 20+ in a class.  My sister was so angry to me and of course I also feel sad on my exam result.  From there I totally understand that my education base was far behind from others.  May be this is the difference of small town education and KK education standard.

For the 2nd semester, I started to study harder and of course I got improvement but still not in top 10.

But I am consider ok as I was been placed to Form 1 A class.  I told my family that I am in the Top class and will study hard to get the best result.

Actually I am not a very clever student and what I can do is maintain my result and still able to stay in Top class until Form 3.  And, I am very active in sports also.  I learn how to swim, play basketball etc .. Feel that I am not a girl course I am a bit "boy" style. haha

I scored 7 B in my PMR exam and I have choose to study in Commerce.  For the last 2 years in Secondary school, I feel glad and I manage to score Grade II in final exam - SPM.

After SPM, I go to search for further information on abroad study, and the place I wish to go is Japan.  I got a lot of info on that.  I like Japan and feel really want to learn Japansese.  I found a teacher that give me private tuition on learning Japanese language.  

At the same time, I took a Computer Study course at Informatics Institute.  Actually I don't know what to study at that time, and my eldest brother advice me to take computer course.  I feel happy to learn it but only I don't like Computer programming.  I failed some of the exam and lucky I passed when I re-sit.

During that time, I on trying to get a job.  I notice there are so many Offshore Banks in Labuan, including Japanese Offshore Banks.  I get some info from my classmate, whereby some of them come from Labuan.  I try to apply the job and finally I got my 1st job in The Industrial Bank of Japan, Ltd., Labuan Branch.

I met my boyfriend through my classmate.  When I work in Labuan, he also the same.  His relatives are local Labuan.  I was staying in my classmate house in Labuan but soon I moved out to stay with my colleague who from KK also.  

May be I am still young, I always quarrel with my boyfriend or even break up with him several times.  But one thing I have to admit that I am very stupid girl that believe him.  End up, he is my first man in my life and from there I take him as so called "husband".

After one year with him, there is one day I got so called 6 sense where I notice a difference from him.  I straight away asked him is it he got another girl friend ?  I still can remember his face reaction was so surprised.  He asked me back how I know ... ya, I knew it.  I cried and feel very very very sad.  We broke up and he go back to KK.  I feel so lonely as I don't have many friends beside me at that moment.

I am a most stupid girl that have been cheated. 

I just don't know why I still accept him back ?  May be at that time, I really in love with him.  Nut thinking back, I feel that I am really really big stupid girl.  Why I just let it go and my life will be different from now.

5 years in Labuan, means 5 years with him.  Then I choose to come back KK as my parents getting old.  I started to look for a job in KK.  Unfortunately, the pay, is quite low compare to what I earn in Labuan.  Lucky I stay in my parents house, so I still can survive. 

He also come back to KK and looking for a job in KK.  I was working in a Insurance Company and I asked him whether he want to try to work with me or not.  He was accepted by my Branch Manager and from there we work for about 3 years.  One thing I admit that he is a clever person, my Branch Manager like him a lot.

Then I change job to Bank, where we decided to get married.  My worst job in my life !  Working hours is long and he always complaint me on that.  He always said he need to wait so long time outside the Bank.  Ask me to finish faster and so on.  I can't take that pressure so I change job.  Still the same ... my Branch Manager required me to arrive office at least 20 minutes early and go back late.  Again, I have been scolded by him because of that.  Let's said my working hours id 9 to 5, my boss want to reach office by 8:45 and go back around 5:30.  But of course not every day like that, only certain day.  But for him, even I late for 10 minutes, he scolded me already.

One thing makes me so upset is he asked me go to body check as no baby after few months married.  My in law also the same, keep pressure me on this matter.  My sister told me not to worry, just relax and don''t pressure myself too much.  But I don't have a good husband, from what he said is I am the "problem".

I remember got 1 day when I went to Hypermarket with him. Suddenly I was fainted and admitted into hospital.  I am too weak and too pressure.  

~~ To be continue ~~


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